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Unknown Gender I will never know who I am.
Emotions are a terrible thing.
Your mind, is there to work against you.

There are days...
I feel more like a man than a woman.
Although, I am not transgender.

I embrace being a woman.
At the same time... I wish I could be one or the other.
I wish I was a beautiful feminine girl, or just a boy.

Even if I were a guy...
I'd want to be a little feminine.
With a dick, and I'd dress up like I have tits.

I hate feeling like this.
It makes me hate myself.
I'll never be happy, the way I am.

Blonde hair, Brown hair.
Short or long...
Piercings or a tattoo.

Boxers, thongs...
Bra's or bon

On Being GenderqueerAs someone who doesn't fit the gender binary, but is closer to fitting as a man than as a woman, I know that I sometimes find it much harder for me to bring up trans issues than stuff about my sexuality. I'm someone who didn't have a feminine personality until I was 16, and even now, it is pretty much a construct. Now, I have fun pretending to be a girl, but that's what it feels like for me.

When I cut my hair recently, a few days later I was binding and wearing guys clothes, and I realized that I was seeing myself when I looked in the mirror again. I hadn't really felt like it had been me that I was seeing for the past three years.

I don't

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Greek - animationby *Zardra

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I decided to annoy with older works of mine, since the year is about to change and I have about 20 images still waiting to be submitted here.

Here's the fourth: An animation I did for my graduation work (About interactive digital painting). This means that this is almost 2 YEARS old! OMG, why did I not submit this earlier? Stuuuupid meeee!

But look: it moves. It has moving clouds and a shimmering ocean.
And a temple that I spent about 2 days painting so you better like it! HARRRR!
I would love to paint more landscapes like this but they drive me maaad, insanely mad.

The picture might take a while to load because it's BIG, and I didn't add the "loading" screen because... well, I was lazy and the presentation for school didn't require one, but it does load, eventually. Be patient. Please

Painting done in Photoshop CS2 and the animations added in Flash 8. Took, like, forever dude.

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